Love at a gas station
driving on E
Love is something I always thought I had to earn just to get by ask me at eleven I’d say it was like stopping at 7-Eleven fuel up just enough to get home move the needle off E a little bit and I’d be okay didn’t matter if I put 93 premium or 87 regular what’s the difference, really? I’d go to a regular church on Sunday mid-range bible club at uni but the goosebumps never lasted to Tuesday there were too many broken parts under my hood too much anger at the world too much hurt from the people who didn’t choose me the ones who didn’t love me I needed a type of cleansing that no grade could deliver maybe a premium conference would fix me maybe premium concerts would finally get me into Love’s heart yet that Love I kept hearing about I couldn’t take it home It felt like it stayed in those rooms I wanted it to choose me but it seems like it already did how could I even get into those rooms? my money evaporated on books and tuition every semester somehow I drove into those spaces with no gas finding myself in regular, mid-range, and premium rooms sometimes with access sometimes with free tickets maybe Love was giving me access to itself in all those ways not because His presence is more in one room than another but to help me see the bigger picture that there was a capital C Church His heart was yearning after people like you and me He wanted to meet and fill and maybe, on the drive back Love never really left me alone I just couldn’t feel it with me all along I needed to sense Love better to know that God is Love and that He was already rubbing His forehead with mine saying: darling, this is the kind of Love you can’t earn but that was already yours to begin with.
Heart Call:
You are so loved, just as you are right now (Romans 8:5). Your picture of Love can start with remembering—all the access, all the moments God showed up for you.
What rooms did He open without you even asking?
How can you shift your posture to receive the kind of love that can’t be earned,
but must be accepted as a free gift?