Romantic kind of girl
loving somebody else's son intentionally?
i've always been a romantic kind of girl and meeting Jesus only intensified that because what do you mean somebody else's son loved me unconditionally? what do you mean i may get to love somebody else's son intentionally? that i would consider him in the decisions i make as i walk with Christ that we might both turn the doorknob at the same time ready to speak our hearts and end up apologizing i hear the wedding pictures will be nice the celebration will be a blast but what i'm looking forward to is the marriage because when they say two become one and let no man separate maybe it's not just about divorce i'm starting to think that it's kind of like a death sentence really a funeral maybe wait a second before that sounds too morbid two become one in the sense that me, myself and i is no longer the first priority that i get put somebody else's needs before my own that i get to fight my natural desire to be right becoming something new together each day passing a new strand held by a single red line in its center i've always been a lover kind of girl i love driving but i dream of being a passenger princess while also being led beyond earthly comfort what do you mean i get to slow down and listen try to see the world through somebody else's eyes i don't remember when i decided i would wait and not accelerate maybe it was middle school maybe it was earlier than that maybe it was when i realized a human couldn't fill up that void inside rewire my mind to tell me i'm enough honestly i just don't know but what i do know is that if i would love him so much how could I give him a job made for Christ? to complete me. still i think Jesus set the bar very high Ephesians 5 sacrificial. yes that word a man that would come up and say what's sitting on his chest even though what we see is really just the tip of the iceberg or something like my pastor would say if you don't take a step in you ain't just my type not in a prideful way but a man who leads with clarity a clear pursuit with words and action that's unmissable in real life
and i've also seen that Proverbs said to guard your heart that's something i've always been intentional about guarding isn't about building walls it's about boundaries until someone finds courage to knock still i can't help but think that the wait is beautiful because the woman i'm becoming is being molded right here right now i get to align my life completely with Him in mind i can pick up and go somewhere just because Jesus told me to stereo blasting. windows down. cruising. just because i felt God say take a trip up north and i'll give you your word for the year there's so much beauty in singleness that we sometimes overlook drawing a life on a blank canvas that already pencil other people's needs first doing life well when moments build your character friendships build bridges finding hobbies you didn't even know you were curious about i've always been a romantic kind of girl yes the pictures the instagram all that stuff it does look nice on the surface but to love somebody else's son unconditionally that's deeper than that it's not even about holding hands it's about walking in the same direction running towards Him with every breath we've got and loving people along the way i don't have a list i don't really believe in that because sometimes we make lists but the real question is do we even meet the criteria on our own list? and as i wait i think he will be obvious when he takes a step forward and the beautiful thing is even if it never happens even if i wait my whole life i'll still be satisfied actually i'm already satisfied and one day regardless i'll be married in heaven.
Heart Call:
Singleness is beautiful. Marriage is about sanctification and mission. Two whole people walking in the same direction, loving people well along the way, and building His kingdom.
Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor:
10 If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls
and has no one to help them up.
11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. — (Ecclesiastes 4:9-12)
Why do you desire marriage? Is it because you want someone to complete you, or because you want a relationship that God can use?
And what would it look like, practically, to live fully in the tension of hoping for marriage on earth, while also making the most of singleness?
Photo Credits: Janay Peters.