Life Next Semester
burning charcoal under marshmallows
What if your life was just never about you what if your pain too was never just about you feeling like you’re in the fire burning like charcoal under marshmallows that enjoy getting toasty but you, you become dust the next day were you even there in the first place? seems like your efforts feel more invisible every single day with a boulder sitting on your chest weighing you down, it tells you: oh no, you'll never make it out better delay but the more you delay the heavier it becomes and before you know it you’re 10th Street down and you’re like: how did I get here? how did I lose sight of what was important? and regret comes in and sit on you too oh should have done something back then back there, should have moved ...you missed your cue yesterday you could have tried harder that probably could have helped too but was life actually easier back then? all the things piling up homework never submitted motivation turns into never that adrenaline rush never kicks in though you waited one more minute till Next Semester still maybe you feeling like you’re burning is not a waste you actually did more than enough to make it out that fire alive then this June everything got pieced together holding your niece as she rubs her head on your chest listening to your heartbeat you sing: “Hold me now in the hands that created the heavens...” you realized that your life had burned for that moment how could she hear your heartbeat if you was gone? how could she feel the vibration of your voice if you was taken? ...like you planned for 14 years what if you had said life goodbye too early? and didn't wait for Next Semester for her to see you for her to meet you turns out that staying in life's fire had purpose after all to see beyond words to look at someone’s eyes and whisper: I see you brother, sister you’re carrying a lot too maybe just maybe going through pain taught you how to see pain how could you have recognized something that you yourself haven’t lived through endured and conquered? you waited till Next Semester but your pain was never in vain you too Next Semester just happened to stumble over you you didn’t choose it yet your pain is not in vain today, nothing can pull you out of this uncertain season and still your pain won't be in vain. [June 29. 2025]
Heart Call:
You may be in the fire right now or feel a boulder is sitting on your chest. But if you keep enduring this season, it will bless one person around you.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. (Mat.11:29-30)
Where in your life you’ve felt behind (or waited for perfect conditions)?
Even so, who might be blessed by your endurance?
Photo Credits: Leon Contreras