I'm still Your favorite song

making up for lost time

words don’t come easy  
without a worship song  
I’m always thinking in terms of fa, re, mi  

I should be grateful  
for just the gift to be
to smile now, something more in tune  
with who I was meant to be  

the more in tune I get  
the more I see
notes that weren’t supposed to even be 
on my music sheet 
all the time I wasted playing off key  

down to one beat black notes
I camouflaged into two beats whites  
like I was keeping count  
of all the times my practice  
left some ears shrieking  

You sang that line
in curved brackets 
that’s now engraved in my memory:
I don't keep count
but you do

you always put a melody
to shame and guilt
when I already took care of it

not that accountability  
won’t be my square pause thing  
but that Your grace covered  
my past, present, future failings  

making up for lost time  
shouldn’t be hummed  
even as a simple Alto harmony  
only to think 
I had to make You happy

You knew too well  
that I would fall then  
and still You teared those  
counting sheets apart  

told me to look at Your hands  
to see forgiveness was already written  

and that I’m still 
Your favorite song.

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Heart Call:

God forgives and doesn’t keep count of your mistakes or failures. But when we stay stuck in cycles of guilt and shame, it often means we haven’t fully received His sacrifice. We’re still trying to earn or make up for what grace already covered.

For by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy. —Hebrews 10:14 (NIV)

• Where in your life do you feel you’ve been trying to make up for lost time?

• Do you find yourself overcommitting just to please others
  or to keep God “happy”?

• How can you release that weight and rest,
  trusting that God has already covered
  your past, present, and future failings?

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Photo Credits: Anastasiya Lenova.