Do you even see how Far you’ve come

small wins, win every time

I forgot this
but it didn’t make sense for something so simple to just slip away
why, though? 
how could I forget the small wins?

I said hi, that was big
I said tell me more of your story, that was big
I walked into the room with fresh breath, that too was big

to show up in the uncomfortable 
not ruminate in my car before going in, that’s transformation

those moments are easy to name
because I lived them in the shadows before anyone could see

I remember driving to host at a new church
still in my car
eating the cold breakfast for courage

and I asked God: 
would you take this personally if I just turn the engine ON and go back home?
I said, I didn’t know anybody there

but then He was like:
well… you know Me, and I’m going to be there
so I walked into the unknown
scared of the painted eyes on the auditorium walls, that was big too

and it’s weird how our mind misses those small milestones
the ones we thought were mountainous impossibilities
a year ago, a month ago, maybe even last week

friends, we’ve come far.

remember the small girl, broken and bruised by the world?
didn’t she try her best?
pushing through in childlike strides
they may seem short now, but don’t compare

how could we ask her to do anything differently?
to speak up, to break the cycle earlier 
when she was just a child doing her best

She, you and we...
did our best

we need to repeat that over and over 
until we believe it

She said, don’t call me by anything but my name!
She shared her faith in a public school to moody teenagers
She walked into a room with just God holding her hand

She was just a child
still learning how to think
how to reason with pain
She fell down, and she got back up again

don’t chart her progress on the same graph... as who you are now
or it might look like a straight horizontal line
hiding the growth that’s truly there

wanting to always take up space 
like it cost her nothing
yet even showing up cost her everything

And still 
she did her best.

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Heart Call

You’ve already done some really hard things. You showed up when it was hard.
You said yes when fear said no. That wasn’t small.

• What have you been calling “not a big deal”
  that actually took a lot courage to do?

• What quiet milestone deserves to be celebrated today?

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